Scar Tissue

I'd first like to say what a GREAT time I had last nite watching Dakota Darling AND Silver (I thought Dakota Darling was the main band, but it was actually Silver-my bad!), anyway Silver was really good-the group of us that went ended up seeing some people we knew from church that were there to support the band and one of them was actually in the band-so that was neat, my friends and I liked "the whole thing" so much, we're going to go see them again and hunt down "new talent"(I'll keep you all posted), Silver's coming to The Brewery on Jan. 25, and Dakota Darling is coming to the Brewery on Jan. 26-so mark your calendars!

Here's Silver's site: http://www.myspace.com/silvermusiconline

On to the blog:

Breaking down and rebuilding.

Church service this morning was awesome, exactly what I needed to hear and exactly what I'm going through right now. Transformation. God is "creating a good work" in me right now, and I trust He will be "faithful to complete it", but a lot of that depends on me, on my decisions, my obedience, and my attitudes. The closer I get to God, the more I begin to "hear" Him speak to me about certain things, there are areas in my life that He is focusing on, and they are REALLY hard to change, but change is happening. Throughout this "process" and although I deserve nothing-God gives me blessings and glimpses of His love for me-much appreciated God! It's basically come down to this: "Let go and LET God", I am only along for the "ride" God has for me-recently I understand nothing in regards to what He's doing, but God knows-I am so WILLING! I am willing to do whatever He wants me to, whenever He wants to do it, and however He wants to do it. I said to God-take whatever You need from my life that's not from You and whatever and whoever You place in my life-let me know WHY. A verse that hit home for me in church is one I've know for awhile, but never thought about in this context:

"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." ~Phil 3:14

~Pastor Mike reiterated what I've read many times, but never saw the truth in before-"forgetting what is behind"; he said how it is vital to our spiritual growth to let go of our past-that was good for me b/c lately I've been drudging up some awful memories and making myself sad. I believe we will always have those memories, but we can't dwell on them, and for me-even talk about them anymore (I'm going to work on this). Always have that "goal" in sight-know that Jesus is moving you towards at all times-w/or w/out your "willingness".

Now onto the title-in my work I deal w/several nasty (as in big) scars on various clients (mostly from skin cancer, major surgeries, and accidents) that I have to manually break down, the scar begins to go through it's healing process and tissue begins to build up around it, but this scar tissue HAS to be broken down to promote proper healing and to prevent immobility and thickness around and in the scar itself. This is not a painless process-even in healing and rebuilding-it is necessary for "breaking" to occur-this reminds me of how Jesus "deals" w/us on a lot of levels, especially healing: the rebuilding, the breaking, the rebuilding, the breaking, the rebuilding-why must I learn everything the hard way?

My New Year's resolution:

To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love Him more
To love him more

You get my point.