Recently I have “auditioned” for two things at church (see link in top right-hand corner and COME VISIT), but…have “made” neither. The first was worship team and the second-drama team. On a scale of 1-10 on being disappointed (10 being overcome w/grief), I am a proud 1, this is the God’s (literally and figuratively) honest truth. The reason I was indifferent to either outcome is that I truly WANT to be where GOD WANTS me to be, and nowhere else. I want to serve God in every single way that I possibly can, I never had a “calling” to audition for either of these teams, I just “did it”, and for the record-it was NOT easy. Worship team was like singing karaoke (for me) times ten, and drama team allowed me to regress to about age 10 and pretend I was everything from a person w/giant feet, a 2 foot nose, and a head full of helium, to someone riding on the back of a dolphin being chased by a shark, so no regrets there-good “memorable” experiences.
All of this leads me to the reason behind the title of this blog. I was so worried that I wasn’t doing enough for God, that I needed to be doing more…well, currently, I’m right where God wants me. Let me elaborate: about one year ago, I realized that I had a slight anxiety when it came to children, so I decided to attend a kidcity (our children’s ministry at church) orientation. I was sitting in orientation, thinking to myself that I definitely didn’t want to be any kind of large group leader or work w/very small children, and then I read about a “buddy system” the church was starting, this system was for children who had special needs (although I dislike this term), you get to work one on one w/the kids and communicate w/their parents, and I thought-PERFECT! So, I went home and prayed…and a few days later someone called to inform me that they had a little 3 year old boy named Logan who was autistic-I was so excited :o). I believe the following week I met him and his amazing parents and the rest is history, Logan is truly a blessing in my life. These recent “turn-downs” are all a part of God letting me know where I need to be, I was happy “watching over” Logan before, but now I’m thrilled- it just feels different having that assurance. Now, I wait on God for the next thing, and the next and the next, what more can I do?
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
All of this leads me to the reason behind the title of this blog. I was so worried that I wasn’t doing enough for God, that I needed to be doing more…well, currently, I’m right where God wants me. Let me elaborate: about one year ago, I realized that I had a slight anxiety when it came to children, so I decided to attend a kidcity (our children’s ministry at church) orientation. I was sitting in orientation, thinking to myself that I definitely didn’t want to be any kind of large group leader or work w/very small children, and then I read about a “buddy system” the church was starting, this system was for children who had special needs (although I dislike this term), you get to work one on one w/the kids and communicate w/their parents, and I thought-PERFECT! So, I went home and prayed…and a few days later someone called to inform me that they had a little 3 year old boy named Logan who was autistic-I was so excited :o). I believe the following week I met him and his amazing parents and the rest is history, Logan is truly a blessing in my life. These recent “turn-downs” are all a part of God letting me know where I need to be, I was happy “watching over” Logan before, but now I’m thrilled- it just feels different having that assurance. Now, I wait on God for the next thing, and the next and the next, what more can I do?
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God. Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior all the day long.
Perfect submission, perfect delight, Visions of rapture now burst on my sight; Angles descending, bring from above Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest, I in my Savior am happy and blessed; Watching and waiting, looking above, Filled with His goodness, lost in His love
Or, in my case, my blessed RE-assurance, thanks God.
One of the current lights in my life-Logan.
2 comments:
I read your blog, Rachel, and I think it is wildly entertaining! :)
THank you so much for being in our lives with Logan. Logan adores you more than you know. You are no longer Rachel, you're THEE RACHEL !
And now his latest title, my girl =)
If it hadn't been for GOD and you we probably would've have to left the church due to the problems we were having with Logan in the nursery at that time.
We do thank GOD for you cause it took us soooooooooo long to find a great church.
We know you love him, hmmmm now what are we going to do when he's 11 yrs old and wants you as his buddy still =) hehehe !
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